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Posted on October 01, 2010okay, so here is the post where i rant and rave and whine and pout about my weight loss or lack thereof. i know, i know, you are all sick to death of hearing about it, but i don’t care. 
really i do, but hey, this is my party and i will whine and pout if i want to!!
so, i have been on my “diet” for a month now, today. for all intensive purposes (not counting what i lost and gained back) i have lost 7 pounds. IN.A.MONTH people. i am so mad right now i could spit!!!!! originally, i lost like 9 pounds in the first 2 weeks, and i was really psyched. then i would gain a pound back and lose it the next day….now i am only down 7 in twice the time!!!!! i just don’t get it. i haven’t cheated, i have done everything BY.THE.BOOK!!!! literally. the “maker” of the program says that the average weight loss is 5-10 pounds a month. so i guess going by that, i am still okay, but i was hoping for better-than-average results!!!!
my husband says well, it’s gonna take some time honey…BLAH BLAH BLAH, while he has lost almost 20 lbs in the same amount of time. he says it’s cause i am a woman and he is a man. like that is supposed to make me feel better.
i know that weight loss takes time and i know that i have to be patient, but I.AM.NOT.A.PATIENT.PERSON i want results like now!! like before now. like YESTERDAY, thank you very much!!!! and also, when you have as much to lose as i do, you want it to come off faster than someone who just has a few pounds to lose. if i just had 5-10 pounds to lose and it really wasn’t a big deal if i lost it, that might be different, but i have almost 80 pounds to lose and this is GOING.TO.TAKE.FOREVER at this rate!!!
okay, i am done whining for now, i guess…it’s just that i want this so badly that even the slightest of bumps in the road is so discouraging to me. i thought it might make the weight loss faster if i exercised some, so i started doing sit-ups and push-ups and using my mini-trampoline, but it seems to have slowed my progress. hubby says that’s probably because i have made muscle and muscle weighs more than fat…BLAH BLAH BLAH. 
I now he is trying to help, but HE.ISN’T.HELPING!!!!!
i am praying that all my friends who are trying to lose weight and get healthy are having better results than i am!!! please pray for me that i will have better results next month!! i refuse to get on the scale before November 1, so that i can save myself the heart-ache of the loss-gain-loss-gain yo-yo effect. it is making me crazy!!! 
please…
depression…
Posted on September 13, 2010i have read a lot of blogs about people who are depressed. a lot of the time depression can be solved by simply taking the focus off of ourselves and putting it on to someone or something else. a lot of times our depression is caused from and/or made worse by dwelling on our own life circumstances, our unfulfilled needs, or stress about who did what to us or any number of other things going on in our day-to-day lives. try putting the focus on someone else and see how depressed you stay. bake cookies for a neighbor, take soup to or read to someone who is sick, run errands for an elderly or handicapped person who can’t get out and do it themselves, help someone in any way you can or anything else you can do to be a blessing to them. depression can be brought on by a number of things, and is bound to affect us, so allow yourself those feelings, they are real and you need to feel them but then don’t just sit back and let them consume you and make you miserable, go out and do something about them!! I can almost guarantee that if you make someone else’s life better, it will make yours better too!!
God can do anything With anyone!
Posted on September 11, 2010THIS IS THE VERY FIRST POST I EVER MADE ON THIS BLOG, I HAVE EDITED IT TO MAKE IT ACCURATE FOR TODAY
I believe that we wives and mothers set the spiritual tone in our homes. At least that’s what I have been taught. You know the saying, “When Mom’s happy, everyone is happy”. Do you ever have one of those days where you just want to crawl under the covers and hide all day?? I have those often.
I am thirty-five years old. I have been married for almost 17 years. I have a 13 year old daughter (almost 14) and a would be 16 year old son. He was killed in an auto accident at ten years old. He would have been 16 August 15th. His name was Elijah. And though we miss him very much EVERY day….we find strength and peace in the fact that he was saved and is now in heaven. So I deal with the loss of my son everyday.
To add to that, I am Bipolar, have Borderline Personality, and OCD. Whoa!! You think I must been on twenty five prescription drugs don’t you?? I am on NONE. That’s right NONE. I read my Bible everyday, I pray to the one TRUE God everyday, and every time the Church doors are open, I’m there. That is how I treat my mania, depression and neurotic behavior!!
Now I’m here to tell you , I still have bad days, just like anyone else. BUT I am also here to tell you , I could never get through the tough times without my Lord and Saviour. I also have a wonderful husband that takes very good care of me!! I had a not-so-great childhood and I have a lot of abuse in my past (physical, emotional and sexual), but I don’t let that determine who I am. I used to, but I have given all of that to the Lord and I now I choose to be happy and content. Yes, some would say I have every right to be bitter and sad because of my circumstances, but I believe that that would hurt only me and my family and most of all God. After all, he has given me so much to be thankful for. Everything that has happened to me in my life has made me who I am today, and I kinda like who I am and where I am. So to regret anything in my life or wish it hadn’t happened would be like saying I don’t like where God has put me and what He has given me. I need to have a positive attitude and a thankful spirit.
We, as humans are all sinners, deserving hell. I know that sounds harsh but it is Biblically true. So anything above hell is a bonus in my way of thinking. God sent his only Son to die on the cross so we wouldn’t have to got to hell. I don’t even deserve that!!!! So, any blessings I receive above that, I am blessed or as some may say “lucky” to have!!
So, in conclusion, remember that anything you have that is good in your life, you have God to thank for it. AND I think we all have more than we deserve!! And also remember that anything bad that has happened, for one reason or another, God has allowed that too. So the next time we don’t want to crawl out from under those covers, let’s try to remember what God has done for us!! Thanks for reading, Have a Happy Day, God Bless!!
Finally Gonna Do This!!!!!
Posted on September 10, 2010i have to tell you about this new thing buster and i are doing. we have totally changed our eating habits in order to become healthier and, of course, to lose weight. i have been trying for some time now to lose my unwanted and UNHEALTHY weight, with little results. i must say, though, i don’t think i really went into it whole heartedly most of the time, though.
but this time, i am committed to it. i have changed my eating habits totally and i am not going to give up until i meet my goal. which, by the way, is losing about 75 pounds. and the sooner, the better. i will not cheat, i will not defer, i will not cave!!!
buster and i have been doing “Let’s Do Lunch” for a little over a week and we are already seeing changes in not only our weight, but in our bodies as well. his pants are fitting loser, he even had to go down a notch in his belt!! i am losing my second chin (gross) and my clothes that were somewhat snug are fitting better!! it’s not the kind of loss i was hoping for, but a little is better than nothing!!
i will try to post a weekly or biweekly update on my progress and how i am feeling, and also share some of the finer points of the program we are doing. since i started the “diet” last wednesday, i have lost 7 lbs. while buster has lost 12!! gggrrrr…. i am frustrated that it wasn’t more for me, but i am thankful for what i did lose. i have heard it is easier for men to lose weight than for women…i have to have more patience with my body and realize that it took me a long time to put all this weight on and it will take some time to take it off!!
so , i would appreciate some chocolate prayers and cheesecake good thoughts as i go forward on this journey to a hot body better health!!! thank you!!
impatient me…
Posted on September 08, 2010it’s official, i am the most impatient person i know!! i have been on a new eating program for a week today…
and i have only lost 6 pounds!!!
here i thought i was gonna lose at least 10, but no, only 6…
i guess that’s better than none, but i was hoping for more…
i guess as long as i continue to go down, i will try to be happy about such little loss…
i am thankful for it, but it’s very frustrating for me as i know i have a lot to lose and it will take some time. like i said, patience is not my forte!! AT.ALL.
A Little Late…
Posted on August 19, 2010I love how you struggle through something and then you find a solution. Back when I had my hysterectomy, Buster’s job didn’t offer health insurance and I didn’t qualify for Medicaid. So, we paid a large sum of money (over $10,000) for my surgery, and it would have been more if the Dr. and Hospital hadn’t deducted some form the amount do to some complications during the surgery.
Anyway, now I hear about this HSA (health savings account). The idea is, you purchase a high-deductible insurance plan (HDHP) that gives you a low-cost premium. Then you put some or even all the money you save on premiums into a tax-free health savings account in your own name. The money you put in is yours, not an insurance company’s. This is also good for you come tax time because, an HSA’s above-the-line deductibility REDUCES your adjusted gross income, effectively reducing your tax burden each year.
When a health problem comes along, you simply use your HSA to pay any qualified expenses that your high-deductible insurance doesn’t cover. The money is withdrawn tax-free and making payment couldn’t be easier, you just hand the provider your HSA debit card.
Most covered expenses include dental bills, over-the-counter medicines, prescription drugs, eye care, hearing aids, and many other health-related items and services that the HDHP doesn’t pay. And, if you don’t use all the money you put in, you can either use it later on in life for long-term care or medicare deductibles or you can withdraw it from the account (there is a penalty if you are under 65, though).
Carry On =)
What a Pain!!
Posted on August 14, 2010My friends dad had to have surgery on his rotator cuff (shoulder) a while back. He was in so much pain before the surgery, he couldn’t lift his arm above his waist!! That’s a lot of pain!! And he also suffers from Post-Polio syndrome (he had polio as a child), which can be very painful. But this man is one of the hardest working men I know!!
He works at a truck parts factory, I think. I’m not sure if they actually make parts or if they just fix them, but what he does is hard work. He has to pull parts down off of high shelves and lift heavy truck and car parts. It’s a hard job, my peeps!!
Anyway, they had to fight and fight to get the companies disability claims department to finally decide they would pay for his surgery. I don’t know if they thought they should have their own disability insurance or what. And it isn’t easy for some people to prove that their injuries are work related, either. This man works on Church buses and friends cars and all that, so he technically could have injured himself somewhere other than work, but goodness!!! Pulling parts and working on heavy equipment for 20+ years sure can’t be easy on a body!!
It would seem to me that his place of work would want to take better care of their employees, to keep them in good shape so they can do their jobs and do them well!!
Carry On =)
Fat Tuesday (a day late)
Posted on August 04, 2010Actually, it’s not really a whole day late…it’s only 12:04 AM Wednesday morning….SORRY TAYLOR!!!
So anyway, here is my Fat Tuesday post…
Has anyone heard about the HCG Hormone Diet??? I have heard several people singing it’s praises, and seen the weight loss for myself. A friend of mine has used the liquid form (you place drops of the hormone under your tongue) twice and lost over 20 pounds!!
I guess you do a few things (actually QUITE a few) in phase 1 that makes the weight loss you achieve in later phases easier and more permanent. Then you actually take the hormones and follow a very strict 500 calorie-a-day diet. I guess it’s fairly inexpensive (when it comes to the cost of diet programs) and not harmful at all. It works by targeting “abnormal” fat cells (the kind our bodies store in our bellies, hips and thighs, that we really don’t need) and burns those first as energy therefore boosting your bodies metabolism. This gets rid of the unwanted fat and gives you more energy to burn fat you still take in and build muscle.
It all sounds a little too good to be true to me, but I don’t know much about it and I can’t argue with how great my friend looks!! And she said nothing about weird side affects and or problems with the diet or the hormones….anyone know anything about this?? Care to share your opinion??
Til we meet again…
“Book” Smarts…
Posted on July 27, 2010Buster and I moved into a house last year that is 1/3 the size of our previous house. Needless to say we are having quite a time finding room for all our things. One thing we really don’t want to get rid of , but may not have a choice about is books. We had an extra room in our old house where we kept all the books on bookshelves. We no longer have an extra room for ANYTHING!!
Some of our books are probably worth some money if we can find the right venue to sell them. I recently found out you can sell used books online!! The best part of that is, that you can recoup most of your money when you sell them that way, and you can sell your books night or day, every day since it’s online and always “open”. You can even sell your used textbooks, which is good for those who can’t afford new or just don’t want to pay full price for them!!
Carry On!! =)
Gotta Love it!!
Posted on June 07, 2010Though you wouldn’t know it looking at my menu plan for the week, I am actually trying to get my family to eat better!! I am cooking up at camp this week and not just for us, so to try new things would be difficult. Anyways, I am trying to get Buster to “diet”. That is like trying to tie down and elephant with thread!! Not that my husband is in any way like an elephant….let me continue before I get myself in trouble…..
My point is, it is hard to get my husband to diet!!! =) I did get him into the habit of taking multivitamins for men for a while, though. I don’t really know how much good they did him with the way he ate, but I guess they didn’t do him any harm!! Since I do not do all the grocery shopping, it’s hard to keep only healthy stuff in the house. And then there is my teenage daughter who does not in any way shape or form need to LOSE.ANY.WEIGHT. In fact, she could stand to gain some, probably. And she does love potato chips in a big way!! She is always asking me to buy them, but then they are here and since I.LOVE.THEM.I.EAT.THEM!!!
Do you see the problem here??? =)
Carry On!! =)
my heart…
Posted on May 19, 2010today i write for me….not because i have a deadline or a certain meme i want to link up with, but for me. this week i haven’t joined in on the weekly memes i usually do and i did that on purpose. i needed a break, i needed to be free from my “obligations”, if you will. and before i get comments and e-mails saying i don’t have to link up every week….i know that, really i do…but today i blog because i want to, because i need to, for myself…
i find that blogging gets my thoughts out of my head where they can be dangerous and gloomy and threatening and it puts them out somewhere where i can look at them in a different way and deal with them in a healthier way….it kind of separates them from me. it probably doesn’t make sense to some, but it works for me!! =)
believe it or not, and some of you will not, and that’s OK. but, believe it or not, i have a good heart (as good as a sinful, but saved by grace, human being can have anyway). i think all people should be treated equally, regardless of race, sex, sexual orientation, wealth and anything else that can separate one group of people from another. that’s not to say i agree with everything a particular group does or doesn’t do, but they should be treated with respect and dignity. they should be prayed for and loved just like anyone else.
i try my very hardest to find the good in everyone, no matter how long or hard i have to look. and up until recently, i thought that everyone possessed at least some good in them. i felt that God makes people and God would never make something that didn’t have at least some redeeming value in it, right? i have recently realized that some people have taken the good God gave them and either destroyed it completely or buried it so deep that it can’t get out anymore. i have found that some people have let the devil take over their lives and given him the place that God should have had. they lie, steal, cheat, manipulate, cast blame, and just in general are not nice people. they are selfish and bitter and lash out to hurt others. and as a part of that, they don’t see this in themselves but seem to project it onto others and claim to see it in their lives. it is so very sad to me that they can’t even see that they are like this. the devil has tricked them into thinking they are right and anyone who isn’t like them is wrong or bad.
people who “suffer” in this way often blame it on something that happened to them in their childhood and/or a condition they have. someone molested them or beat them or hurt them in some other way. or they suffer from a mental disorder. that is a cop-out!! i can say that because i had a very tough childhood and i am also diagnosed with and documented to have bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder (among other things). my parents were separated and/or divorced either just before i was born or just after, i am not sure which but i know they were not together when i was taken from my mother at 18 months old for neglect because then i was placed in my father’s care for several years after that and was taken from him for physical and sexual abuse. from there i went to a “foster” home and the woman who took care of me there ended up adopting me. at 17 i left home after enduring years and years of physical and emotional abuse.
i am NOT in a any way shape or form saying i was a perfect child or teen(or that i am perfect now, for that matter, because i wasn’t, am not,and never will be while i am here on this earth)!!! i was naughty just like everyone else. and because of everything i went through as a child, i did have a lot of issues to deal with through counseling and therapy and such. and i did have to have therapy and medications and counseling and things like that for the “mental issues” i have. and yes, i got rude with my parents just like EVERY child does at one time or another. i didn’t do what i was told to do from time to time, just like EVERY other child does!! i lied to my parents occasionally, just like EVERY other child does (for the most part). i am ashamed to say it, but i did have a problem with stealing as a child and a teen but i have admitted it, repented and asked for forgiveness for it, which is all i can do now. BUT, considering where i came from and what i went through, it could have been a lot worse. i didn’t drink and party and and sleep around and do drugs, or any of those kinds of things. although, i did not have a good grasp on the difference between right and wrong, lies and truth, good and bad. i had been taught by example that lies were OK, that in a lot of cases bad was good and wrong was right. and i thought that the way i was brought up was normal. it was hard to keep everything straight.
then through some good relationships i slowly learned that lying is wrong and that i don’t have to lie to make and keep friends, in fact that is a good way to LOSE friends!! i learned that lesson the hard way in high school, unfortunately. but i learned it nonetheless. and i am so thankful i did, because now i have so many healthy relationships. i learned that there are people who will love me unconditionally, faults and all. that i don’t have to be perfect to be loved. i learned that everything good in my life comes from God and that He has allowed everything that has happened for a reason. i have learned that God doesn’t make mistakes and He is always in control, even though i may not always understand. i learned that with God’s help i can be different than those that hurt me, so i don’t have to repeat that cycle. i learned that i can forgive those who hurt me and not let that hurt and pain define who i am. i can CHOOSE to let my past hurt me and prevent me from doing God’s will for my life by being bitter and mad and depressed and feeling sorry for myself or i can allow God’s love and grace to wash all that away and I can live my life for Him. that is what i choose!! because being bitter and depressed and feeling sorry for myself only hurts me, it only makes my life miserable, and it gives satan reason to rejoice because i can’t effectively live my life for God if i live that way! and personally, i don’t want to give satan glory, i want to give God glory!!!
thanks for stopping by, sorry you didn’t find my “normal” posts this week about random things like weight loss and recipes, but fear not, i will likely be back in the swing of things next week!! thanks for “listening” to my ramblings. please vote on my new poll and let me know what you think…
and as always…
And while we’re on the subject….
Posted on May 15, 2010It has been my experience that you don’t get permanent results as often with quick weight loss, as opposed to weight loss over a longer period of time. By that, I mean that the longer it takes t lose the weight, the longer it stays off. As least that is what I hear most often. And also that has been true for me, for the most part.
Someone asked me what my feelings are on the importance of being happy and healthy or skinny or both. And if I feel you have to be skinny to be healthy. Not necessarily is my answer. I feel that you can be “skinny” and not healthy or “fat” and unhealthy. Healthy doesn’t mean you have to be a tooth pick. I think someone who is 10 pounds over their “ideal” weight can actually be healthier than someone who is their “ideal” weight.
Of course it depends on the person, too. MY goal for this next year is to eat things I know are healthy for me (fruit, vegetables, lean meat, more fresh food/less processed, and whole grains) and to get more exercise (walking, gardening, jogging, jumping on my trampoline). And if I don’t lose a lot of weight even though I do all these things, then I will at least be healthier!!! Healthy is what is important to me!!