Seven Years Ago Today…
Posted on November 05, 2011Seven years ago today my life turned upside down.
Seven years ago today my life turned inside out.
Seven years ago today my worst nightmare came true.
Seven years ago today I had to say good bye to my ten year old son forever (worldly speaking, that is).
Seven years ago today God took that precious boy home to live with Him and forever changed me. I wish I could say it was for the better, but I just don’t know that I can. Maybe some day…
I know God has a reason for everything he does. Things don’t just randomly happen, I know that deep down, I do!! But I just feel so broken sometimes. Sometimes I just feel like there is nothing that can fix this, ya know?
But God can…
He won’t bring Eli back, it’s not that He can’t, but He won’t. There is a reason. We don’t know why, but it’s for our own good that we suffer. I know it sounds strange, but there MUST be something good that comes from this or it wouldn’t be happening.
I know that’s how God works. I feel God working in my life. Most times I feel the energy He puts off like I can reach out and touch it! It’s awesome and I love it. I love to tell others about Jesus and what He’s done for them!!
Other times I feel like it’s this crazy roller coaster and I just wanna get off for a while cause it’s making me dizzy and sick! Like it’s all just too much. I think that is the devil just wanting me to give up!
Well, I just want to tell the devil, you can’t have me…I am on the winning side! I have Jesus and so did my son!
So for all those out there who have lost those you love or who are suffering in some way, please, don’t suffer alone. God loves you and He sent His son to show you that! Please see My Romans Road page for more information!!
When I said “I do” I meant Forever…
Posted on October 31, 2011Then…
As of yesterday I have been married to the same person for 18 years. By many standards that is a long time. Considering half the people that get married this day and age end up getting divorce, I would say that is a long time. Of course, I don’t know how long the average marriage lasts. Hang on I will look that up….
OK, according to Google, the average marriage in the United States lasts 8 years. So The hubs and I have “out wed” the average marriage by ten years. Not bad, not bad at all.
Marriage is hard people. It’s not all candy and roses all up in here every day (or pretty much any day for that matter). It’s ugly and hard. It takes a lot of “I’m sorrys” and “I’ll do better next times”. We have called names and yelled and I think even thrown things. I can’t be sure, but I think so. I mean, for goodness sake, you can’t live with someone almost 20 years and not chuck something at his head at least once, right? Right?!?!
Marriage is about committing to your life, body and soul to someone forever “til death do us part”. People forget that part when it gets hard. I have forgotten that part sometimes. I have wanted to throw in the towel when it has gotten hard and I’m sure my husband has. Lord knows I have given him plenty of reasons to! He has definitely had it harder than me in this marriage, I will tell you that!
I am not perfect and neither is he, but we are perfect for each other! God has made that clear to us. And even if we weren’t, we became perfect for each other when we made our vows and become man and wife before God and everyone at our wedding.
But I believe God made my husband for me and me for my husband. Buster is the most patient man I know. He is so patient with me with all I have been through in my life and with my Bipolar and Borderline Pers0nality Disorder and other challenges I have. He has been patient with me with the issues I have had with my adoptive parents. He has been the best father our kids could ever ask for! I love that about him.
Now…
Where has the time gone? Doesn’t seem possible that 18 years have come and gone…
So, if you have someone who knows all about your pain-in-the-butt-ed-ness and still wants to call you his, hang onto him. And if you’ve got someone who’s worth fighting for, hang onto ‘em and fight for ‘em! Cause these days, they are hard to come by, someone who will stand by you and stick with you through the hard times…
I found mine more than 20 years ago and somehow, by the grace of God, he’s still here…
Til next time friends,
Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired
Posted on October 27, 2011So, I finally went to the Dr. yesterday. It’s been weeks since I felt like myself. My chest has been feeling very heavy and recently I have had some burning and coughing. Day before yesterday I finally made an appointment to see my doctor.
They said to come in yesterday and if it got worse overnight to go into the ER. So that’s what we did, we went into the office yesterday. Doc says I have Pleurisy. Which is basically just inflammation of the protective lining around the lungs. This is odd to me because normally an infection or some sort of trauma occurs to cause such a thing to happen. None of which has happened to me recently.
Disease can also be a factor, so now I am left to wonder if I have something else going on with my body. Rheumatoid Arthritis and Lupus were the two that stuck out in my mind, but I’m sure there are others. I have been having problems with a lot of joint pain an weakness lately, but I don’t want to be one of “those” kind of people, you know the ones who think every ache and pain means they are dying of some mysterious illness….
Anyway, there it is. I finally went to the Dr. and there was something wrong and we are hopefully fixing it.
See you around, til then,
Taking Care..
Posted on October 24, 2011Practicing what I preach is not once of my finer qualities, unfortunately. And I know it. And I think everyone who knows me know it, too. Yeah, it’s kind of one of those well known facts that is like the elephant in the room that doesn’t even need to be talked about.
I am always telling the hubs to be careful when working with this or that, ya know hounding him about material handling and whathaveyou. And then I go and clean the bathrooms up at camp at use all these caustic cleaners and such with no ventilation and I’m breathing it in and I’m coughing and spitting and sputtering.
So, yeah, I need to learn to turn the fans on and or wear a mask when I’m cleaning or something because I think I am/going to do serious harm to myself with these cleaning supplies I am using weekly when cleaning up at camp. I am already having some issues with my chest/lungs lately.
Take Care of yourselves friends and as always…
YeeHaw!!
Posted on October 21, 2011We live kinda out in the middle of no-where. Our road is one of the last to get plowed in he winter. It get’s pretty tricky trying to get in and out of camp in the dead of winter!
This is why the hubster takes the girl to school all winter long. He’s such a good hubby! This is one of the many reasons I love him so!
I’m still waiting for him to put some tire chains on the car and let me have at it!! 
Oh, the fun I could have! Of course, I’d probably spend more time in the ditch than on the road, but hey, I would have a lot of fun!!
Carry on, and remember,
Blind In One Eye and Can’t See Out Of The Other
Posted on October 19, 2011I cannot believe I am sounding more and more like an old person every day, I swear! Not only sounding like one, but looking like one, too. And acting and feeling like one.
I find myself having aches and pains that I didn’t have before. Saying things I didn’t say before. Did you read the title of this post, for the love of Pete? Or that last sentence?!?
What is this world coming to? The other day I was reading the ingredients on the back of a can and I had to hold it like 2 feet away from my face to read it, like a little old lady. Next thing you know I’ll be buying a pair of those hideous reading glasses off the end cap at the local drug store. You know the tortoise shell ones, or the bright multi-colored ones, made to look like stained glass.
It’s all becoming so clear to me. I’m.Getting.Old.People. and I do.Not.Like.It.One.Bit. but what can I do, its better than the alternative, I guess.
Carry On…
Gifts…
Posted on October 05, 2011I love personalized gifts. Simply love them. Because they are personal.
They say, “I thought about YOU when I bought this gift.” It’s all fine and good to buy someone a random gift and I’m all for the gift card. There is a time and a place for every gift. but a personalized gift is just…..special.
I like to peruse this one site where you find different kinds of gifts. Everything from personal retirement gift ideas to baby gifts. They have shirts, mugs, golf balls, a little of this and a little of that, it’s great.
Hey! Maybe I’ll find something for the boy for his birthday there!!
I Luv My “Job”
Posted on October 01, 2011I love being here at camp. Although I do not have what is considered a “job”, since I don’t get paid for what I do, I do love my “job”. My hubby and I are supported like missionaries, so in a way I do get paid, but I don’t get a pay check, to speak of. I cook and clean here at Fort Faith Baptist Camp. I also do some bookwork and make newsletters and menus and fun stuff like that. I have to be honest, I don’t really enjoy the cleaning part all that much, but hey, ya gotta take the bad with the good, right? 
It can’t all be fun and games…
I always thought I wanted to be a nurse or a teacher. Growing up, I often thought that’s what I wanted to do. Friends of mine worked as CNAs and worked their way up to working in Dr.’s offices or hospitals and are now making good money. I could never get past the adult diapers.
It’s the darnedest thing. I can handle blood and guts, but not adult “waste”. I don’t know what it is. I used to babysit as a teenager and young adult. Once a child hit like 3, they had to be potty trained or I couldn’t handle it. I couldn’t change their diaper if they were older. I guess I’m weird.
I don’t handle vomit well, either. The smell gets me every time. And don’t even let me see it or it’s all over. So the medical field was pretty much out of the question for me, unless I wanted to go into surgery or something, which wasn’t going to happen.
But anyway, I am blessed to be where I am, doing what I do. Even if I don’t make big bucks doing it! All my treasures are being laid up in heaven!!
This Post Is A Must Read…
Posted on October 01, 2011If you only read one post I ever post, please let it be this one. I beg of you. This might just be the single most important post I will ever post. Okay, maybe the second most important. Because the posts I post about salvation are probably the most important…
But this one is very important!
I want you to realize that we are in a fight! A fight against the devil and evil! Yes, the devil! He is waging a war against us and if we are not careful and vigilant, he is going to win!
You think I’ve lost my mind don’t you? Look around you, friends…
Look at all the pastor’s wives fighting cancer or some other life-threatening or life-altering illness right now, do you think that is a coincidence?
Look at all the “men of God” being accused of “sexual deviance”, do you think that is coincidence?
Look at all the marriages in ruins, do you think that is coincidence?
We are in the fight of our lives, people, do we not realize this? The devil is after us and our families and I don’t think we even realize it!
Hold your dear ones close friends. Yes, even when they hurt you. Even when you think they have done the unforgivable. Jesus forgave you!
Husbands, pray for your wives.
Wives, pray for your husbands.
Church members, pray for your pastors.
Pastors, pray for your church members.
Parents, pray for your children.
Children, pray for your parents.
EVERYONE, pray for EVERYONE!!!
God Made A Way…
Posted on September 30, 2011Remember this post? Of course you do…
Some of you probably thought I was some kind of nut for posting it! Come on, I know you did. It’s okay, you can admit it, I’m comfortable with that!
We all are born and we all die right? Easy question….
Most of us wonder what is going to happen to us when we die, right? Another easy question…
Well, the answer to that question is this, we either go to heaven or hell…those are the options, according to the bible.
This is the thing. You must know Jesus Christ as your personal Savior in order to go to heaven! Plain and simple.
You have to realize you are a sinner (we all are)…
You have to realize that there is a penalty for that sin (sin always has consequences)…
You have to accept that Jesus paid that penalty for you (when He died on the cross)…
You have to realize that He is your only way to heaven (you can’t do anything to get yourself there)…
It’s as simple as that.
That (in a nut shell) is the plan of salvation and if you wanted me to , I could show you bible verses to back those points up. In fact, if you visit my “Romans Road” page, you will find those exact verses!!
Have questions?? Leave them in the comments!! I’ll be happy to help in any way I can, if I don’t have the answers, I’ll gladly pass your questions on to my pastor and have him help you!
Blessings…
Posted on September 20, 2011Surprisingly, I am coming out of my “funk” much earlier than I thought I was going to. I recently blogged about missing my son and crying a lot and going through some tough times.
I thought I was going to be there for a while. I really did. But I started praying more and getting into my bible more and I think it really helped. Ya wanna know why? Because I serve a mighty God, that’s why!!
I truly believe that! If we are faithful to ask God to help us, He is faithful to do so!! And some times, even when we are too stubborn to do so, He is still faithful to take care of us!! I have often been to stubborn or just too clueless to reach out and ask for God’s help and yet, He has been right there beside me all the way…
It’s not rocket science folks. If you are in need, go to the ONE who can meet your need! People are going to let you down. Parents, friends, spouses, siblings, etc. They are human, just like you. No matter how good they are, they are flawed, just like you! The one “person” you can always count on, without fail, is God. He will never let you down.
Now, I’m not saying you will always get your way and you’ll never have problems, but He will never leave you or forsake you. He loves you and He will meet your needs and take care of you!
Love…
Posted on September 13, 2011Yesterday I talked a little bit about being “too” fundamental. Today I want to talk about loving people. Not just loving people, but loving people as Christians. The reason I want to talk about this is because IT.IS.SO.IMPORTANT.
As Christians we are called to love one another as Christ loves us. Did you know that? It’s something I think we all forget. Even the best of Christians forget this. We get so caught up in the “rules” and “regulations” that we want to impose on each other that we forget to love one another. I touched on this yesterday, but wanted to expand on it today.
The evangelist we had at our church Sunday made a comment while preaching that stuck with me. He said, “Your church will only be as great as the love you show others”. Wow!! That statement is so simple and yet so profound and the same time! And it makes so much sense!
Let me stress something to you friends. We are never going to grow our churches IF.WE.DON’T.LOVE.PEOPLE. and we can’t love people if we are CONSTANTLY.JUDGING.THEM. for every little thing that we don’t agree with. Get out of your own way and allow yourself to see others the way God sees them! Allow yourself to love people the way God loves them…unconditionally, wholly, without condemnation, the way He loves YOU!
