I had finally had enough and told my adoptive parents that I would no longer allow them to manipulate and hurt me and those I loved anymore.  They no longer speak to me. It’s sad, really.  My ‘dad’ could have had a relationship with me and my family if only he would have stood up to my ‘mother’.  But he wouldn’t.  I just don’t understand that.  I don’t how, after years of abuse, he couldn’t stand up to her and say he had had enough.  I guess he likes being stepped on and beaten down.  Either that or he just doesn’t know how to stop it.  I don’t know, I cannot and will not allow myself to worry about why he continues to allow her to hurt him the way she does.  He is an adult and he should be able to take care of himself and if he won’t, there is nothing I can do about it.  I have come to that conclusion after years and years of worrying myself sick over it. I simply cannot do it anymore.

So, now I have moved on to other people to worry about…

More to follow as I collect my thoughts…

I can feel the rate of my heart increase and the temperature of my blood rise to a low simmer.  Not a boil, just a simmer.  It’s not until I see them that it boils.  A nice hard boil!!

I am trying to keep my composure, but this one in particular person is making it hard lately.  I don’t think he/she is doing it on purpose, but I can’t  be sure.  It might just be the way he/she is, OR he/she might be just trying to get on my nerves.  I have a feeling he/she might just be being  his/herself, which is really sad because well….that’s just sad.

To be that selfish and vain and….well, that’s just sad.

Aaaahhhh, I feel a little better now.  Just had to get that out.  Please be in prayer for me.

It has a hundred ‘best’ cupcakes recipes in it!! I am a little excited to say the least.  Can’t wait to make some of these babies.  Some sound a little weird.  Like ‘Go fly a kite cupcakes’.  I don’t know about that one.  But they do have m&ms in them, so how bad can they be, I mean come on.

Woke up this morning feeling poorly.  Don’t know if it’s from doing too much over the weekend, all the germs I was exposed to yesterday at the mall or just me being me.  All I know is I feel icky.  It’s going to be a short week, too.  We have to clean and shop and we have a camp coming in a gain of Friday evening.  Last weekends was Saturday-Monday.  This weekends is Friday-Sunday.  At least we’ll get to go to church Sunday night this week.  If I’m not passed out from exhaustion, that is. We shall see.

Hope you all had a fabulous weekend.  I’ll be back.  Catch ya later…

You know the old saying ‘You can’t teach an old dog new tricks’? Well, I want to know if you can teach an old lady new tricks.  I used to play the clarinet in high school.  Not very exciting, I know.  I always thought it would be more fun to play the flute or the saxophone or something, but I played the boring clarinet.

I don’t even remember why I played the clarinet. I don’t remember liking it, really.  My sister played the coronet.  I that an instrument? I think it is…It’s something like a trumpet, right? LOL I’ve always liked the guitar.  And the piano.  I have always admired the piano players in our church.  Getting up there Sunday after Sunday playing offertories and specials.

I’ve often thought about trying to learn to play guitar or piano, I hear they are similar.  But I am getting too old for that now.  I can’t even remember to brush my teeth before bed.  Goodness gracious, how would I ever learn to play guitar?!?!?

Carry on people, Carry on….

Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Dip (It’s so good!)

We pulled into the motel down by my dad’s and realized our car was leaking radiator fluid (always a good sign, or NOT).  On a positive note, we knew going down that we were coming back with a new (to us) Honda CR-V.  My dad decided to give my step-mom’s van to my brother and sister-in-law because they have been looking for another vehicle and he thought that would work great for what they needed. And because he did that, he thought he needed to get us a vehicle too.  I assured him he did not, but he was having none of it (Thanks Daddy, you’re the best).  So, immediately, he started looking for a suitable vehicle for Buster and I.

Find This:

• 1 stick butter, room temp
• 1 cup packed brown sugar
• 1 (8 oz) block cream cheese, room temp
• 1-2 cups powdered sugar, depending on how sweet you want it
• 2 teaspoons vanilla
• 1 cup chocolate chips + some for ‘garnish’ (or more depending on how many you like)

Do This:

1. Melt butter in a small saucepan over medium heat. Add brown sugar and whisk until sugar dissolves and mixture starts to bubble. Set aside to cool, and whisk in vanilla.
2. Cream together cream cheese and powdered sugar for 60 seconds. With mixer on low-speed, add in brown sugar and butter mixture. Mix until combined. I added the chocolate chips at this time so the mixer could break them up into pieces. You can do that, or just fold in the chocolate chips.
3. Garnish with additional chocolate chips. Serves with fruit, cookies, crackers, pretzels or just dig right in with a spoon (not that I did that or anything).

This stuff is really good.  I think I found the original recipe on Pinterest but I didn’t stick to the original recipe because, well…. I’m me!!  Of course now that it’s the new year and I am now on a mission to lose another 40 pounds in the next 5-6 months, sugar (and flour and anything processed) is the enemy and I can no longer eat yummlies like this.  Sigh.

So my dad got online and searched for an all-wheel or 4-wheel drive car that would get as good or better gas mileage as we were getting with our neon.  He and my brother actually looked a couple of Honda CR-V’s, but ended up getting the one we drove home. It’s a black ’99 Honda CR-V with 91,000 miles on it.  It’s in really good shape and even has a remote starter on it! It’s an awesome little truck/car.

When we left my dad the reality of his loss was setting in, but he seemed to be doing well.  I texted him this morning to see how he slept last night and to make sure he had a good breakfast this morning.  He said he had a rough evening but slept well once he got to sleep.  He had fed himself a healthy breakfast and was having a fairly good day.

I just hate the thought of him being lonely.  He is going to take the rest of the week off I think and go back to work on Monday.  He could take Monday off and have it paid, but I told him to be careful not to sit around and stew too much and he agreed.

He has a good support system in place.  He is already plugged into a Promise Keepers group through his work and He is a member of a church and has a good Pastor who will look after him.  I wish I lived closer so I could be there more.  But I will just have to pray a little harder! He will be fine, I know God will take care of him!

I didn’t really make any New Years Resolutions to speak of, but I did decide I needed to work harder at keeping my home uncluttered.  I live in a very small house and it’s very easy for it to become cluttered in a very short amount of time.  I also have decided to get more exercise this year.  Even with my heart murmur and breathing difficulties, I want to lose weight and be healthy and SOME exercise is a must.  So, I have decided to do what I can and call it good.

This morning I went in for the 24-hour Heart Monitor test.  Last week I had a Pulmonary Function test and my Dr.’s office called and said they got the results and want to see me so they scheduled an appointment for Monday.

I haven’t heard anything from my Dr. about the Echocardiogram yet.  I will ask about it when I see him Monday.  I still laugh every time I think about the lady’s reaction when I asked her if the sound I was hearing was the murmur I wasn’t supposed to have anymore.  She said, “A murmur means you have a leaky valve and that’s a loud one!” LOL I knew what it meant.  I was told years ago that I had Mitral Valve Prolapse and that eventually I would probably have to have that valve replaced.  but a few years ago before having major surgery, I had a physical and they told me I didn’t have the murmur anymore.  I guess they were wrong.

Anyway, that’s what’s going on here.  What’s going on with you? Are you well? Did you have a good New Years?

Here are a few of the things I made this last week for Saturday’s family Christmas…

Dipped Pretzels Nom Nom Nom…

Never mind the Jo-Lyn’s stamp on the picture…that’s my other blog for my cup cake/candy biz.

These are a couple of the Chocolate Spoons ‘The Girl’ and I made.  Don’t they look yummy?

MMMMM…yummy Candy Cane Marshmallows

Buster wasn’t feeling well when we went to the store to pick up the things I needed to make the goodies so he sat in the car while ‘The Girl’ and I shopped.  Because we were in a hurry I completely forgot to buy something to put the goodies in once they were made.  I bought these cute paper doilies to make tags with but nothing to put them on…

I scribbled out the names after I uploaded them on the computer…

So when we got the goodies made we had to put them in brown paper bag and attach the pretty home made tags on them.  They turned out kinda cute I think…

Not too shabby, If I do say so myself!  And I just did!

See You Soon!

How can that be?  Something must be causing this.

And now I am having this mysterious chest pain and shortness of breath that makes me cough.  The Dr. thought it was pleurisy, so he put me on meds for inflammation of the lining of the lungs.  I took it, but he said it could be weeks before I see an improvement (which I have not seen yet), so I don;t want to call him yet and tell him I am not feeling any better yet, because it might be too early for me to be feeling any better…

So, I am felling very frustrated.  I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired!   It’s been since March that I have been dealing with this passing out issue and it’s been a month or more that my chest has been bothering me.  It feels like someone is sitting on my chest  about 90% of the time and I can’t take a full breath about 50% of the time.  And I have this ache in my chest and shoulders.  And sometimes I get sharp pains, but not very often.  I cough quite a bit and especially when I think about it or talk about it (I have issues about being able to breathe).

Being sick all the time wears on you.  I am grumpy all the time and my husband is getting sick of me being short tempered, but sometimes I just can’t help it.  I’m tired and don’t feel good ALL.THE.TIME.  Something has got to change! I have to have some answers and soon! I am going insane!!

I hope everyone else is having a better fall than I am, Happy Thanksgiving to you all!!

I’ll be seeing you,

This is why the hubster takes the girl to school all winter long.  He’s such a good hubby! This is one of the many reasons I love him so!

I’m still waiting for him to put some tire chains on the car and let me have at it!! Oh, the fun I could have! Of course, I’d probably spend more time in the ditch than on the road, but hey, I would have a lot of fun!!

Carry on, and remember,

I have all these ideas swirling around in my head but getting them from there to the book is a challenge.  They somehow get lost in the “translation” somehow.  I really don’t understand it.  I see it in my head and it’s beautiful, but getting it on paper, so to speak, is a nightmare.  I cannot make it happen.

I have some of the stuff to start a couple scrapbooks, too somewhere.  My hubby’s aunt gave it to me.  I really should just sit down and see if I can do something with it, if I can find it now…

Well, anyway, maybe I’ll work on it and post some pictures of what I come up with, if anything.

Til next time…

Most people remember to wear sunscreen to protect their skin from sun damage, I wonder how many people realize that sun can damage your eyes? Not the same way it does your skin, but it can damage them!

I found some really cool julbo sunglasses.  They have sunglasses for men, women and children.  Their prices are pretty substantial, but they are well made and should last a good long time.  And they have some good discounts and free shipping offers, too!!

Make sure and take good care of your eyes this summer!!

]]> http://blog-diggidy.com/index.php/2011/07/its-hot/feed/ 1 http://blog-diggidy.com/index.php/2011/06/a-little-rr/ http://blog-diggidy.com/index.php/2011/06/a-little-rr/#comments Mon, 20 Jun 2011 17:33:11 +0000 Jo http://blog-diggidy.com/?p=4119 I have not been sleeping well the last few nights.  In fact, Saturday night, I got less than an hour of sleep and ended up missing church on Sunday.  I hate missing church.  But, I couldn’t even see straight, let alone get up and get ready for church and GO to church…

Last night was a little better, I got about 5 hours of sleep.  I don’t know if I am manic right now or what, but I know I need some rest.  These are the times when I like to just run a nice warm bath and throw some bath salts in the tub, climb in and just soak all the worries away…even though it’s not sleep, it rests your body and soul and you feel rested and rejuvenated…

And, I love how bath salts make you feel all smooth and soft when you get out and they smell so good…gotta go…

“Lady Slippers”

Hubby found these beauties while out riding quads with friends on the property the other day.  Aren’t they gorgeous???