okay, so here is the post where i rant and rave and whine and pout about my weight loss or lack thereof. i know, i know, you are all sick to death of hearing about it, but i don’t care. 
really i do, but hey, this is my party and i will whine and pout if i want to!!
so, i have been on my “diet” for a month now, today. for all intensive purposes (not counting what i lost and gained back) i have lost 7 pounds. IN.A.MONTH people. i am so mad right now i could spit!!!!! originally, i lost like 9 pounds in the first 2 weeks, and i was really psyched. then i would gain a pound back and lose it the next day….now i am only down 7 in twice the time!!!!! i just don’t get it. i haven’t cheated, i have done everything BY.THE.BOOK!!!! literally. the “maker” of the program says that the average weight loss is 5-10 pounds a month. so i guess going by that, i am still okay, but i was hoping for better-than-average results!!!!
my husband says well, it’s gonna take some time honey…BLAH BLAH BLAH, while he has lost almost 20 lbs in the same amount of time. he says it’s cause i am a woman and he is a man. like that is supposed to make me feel better.
i know that weight loss takes time and i know that i have to be patient, but I.AM.NOT.A.PATIENT.PERSON i want results like now!! like before now. like YESTERDAY, thank you very much!!!! and also, when you have as much to lose as i do, you want it to come off faster than someone who just has a few pounds to lose. if i just had 5-10 pounds to lose and it really wasn’t a big deal if i lost it, that might be different, but i have almost 80 pounds to lose and this is GOING.TO.TAKE.FOREVER at this rate!!!
okay, i am done whining for now, i guess…it’s just that i want this so badly that even the slightest of bumps in the road is so discouraging to me. i thought it might make the weight loss faster if i exercised some, so i started doing sit-ups and push-ups and using my mini-trampoline, but it seems to have slowed my progress. hubby says that’s probably because i have made muscle and muscle weighs more than fat…BLAH BLAH BLAH. 
I now he is trying to help, but HE.ISN’T.HELPING!!!!!
i am praying that all my friends who are trying to lose weight and get healthy are having better results than i am!!! please pray for me that i will have better results next month!! i refuse to get on the scale before November 1, so that i can save myself the heart-ache of the loss-gain-loss-gain yo-yo effect. it is making me crazy!!! 
please…
I so understand where you are coming from Jo! I have struggled for years with being overweight and it never gets any easier to lose weight once you have gained it. All I can say to you is please don’t give up. I can tell by the way you talk that you really want this to happen. I also know that it seems like you work really hard and stick to your diet religiously and still the weight just does not seem to want to come off. My best friend and I both have this same struggle. Please keep on keeping on Jo and I just know you will achieve your goal! And, btw, your hubby is right about the muscle thing. But, remember Jo, that muscle you are building will burn more calories (even when you are asleep) than the fat ever would. So keep exercising and following your diet plan. You can do it! I know you can! And just think of the joy you will have when you finally “get there”! I will pray for you!
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thnx so much emily for your words of encouragement!! it means so very much to me right now!! i wil not give up…i will do this!!! =) thnx again!! and thnx for the prayers!!!