love…

i just responded to a blog about the heart being made to be broken and i wanted to post this while it was fresh in my mind.  i said i agreed with whoever it was that said it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all (not a direct quote). i told them about how i lost my 10 year old son in an auto accident almost 4 years ago.  it was very hard for me obviously, but i have said before and will continue to say, if i had a choice between  never having had him in my life and going through the heartache of losing him…i’d choose losing him.  no, im not a psychopath or anything..let me explain…i loved him so much, he was so special that i would rather have him for those 10 short years and lose him than to never have him in my life.   does this make sense to anyone else????  he touched so many peoples lives and made them better.  we were told after his death about how he used to protect peoples kids from bullies and about how generous he was and we saw this for ourselves as well.  he was not perfect by any means but he was special and he was loved by many!!